Dedicated to you!

And now I wait my whole lifetime
For You
And now I wait my whole lifetime
For You

I ride the dirt, I ride the tide
For you
I search the outside, search inside
For you

You make me smash the clock and feel,
I'd rather die behind the wheel.
Time was never on my side,
So on I wait my whole lifetime.

(Metallica: The Outlaw Torn)

This is dedicated to you!...

(I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing) This song just tells all!

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you baby
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God we're together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever

Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you baby
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I don't want to miss a thing

I don't want to miss one smile
I don't want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you baby
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I don't want to miss a thing

Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
I don't want to miss a thing


Aerosmith: I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing.... I love you!

A Motel's Memorandum

On that road that connects the desert to the sea, there is an infamous motel... You rarely find cars parking there, however, there have to be some residents having a rest in that big old wooden motel in order to have energy to resume their long long rides. I am on the road walking and I see the motel that I knew it was there although no one talks about it. Being very tired, I decide to get in the motel and have some rest... As I come in, I find an old strong tall white-bearded man who smiles at me and says:
"Hello, welcome to the motel"
"Thanks, I want a single room for tonight" I reply as I smile back...
"Single room? No one with you on the road?" he replies back quickly raising his eyebrow with the same smile on his face.
"Yeah, I am alone, no one with me...!" I answer back slowly...
He smiles, nodes his head and says: "They all say this... Here is the key to your room!"
"Thanks!" I reply with a plain face. I take my small backpack and go up to the room... But before I move he adds:
"By the way, you can sit in the motel's garden and read the motel's memorandum... I hope you add to the memo yourself, all my residents do the same... You can also read what other residents wrote..." The same welcoming smile on his face... "Enjoy your time!" he adds.

I decide not to go up to the room and just go the garden... I don't know why... I just feel I wanna go sit in the garden! In the garden I find only one big empty chair, a round table and a red old book on it. As I sit down, I know how comfortable that seat is, so I stretch my leg on the table and grab the book.... As I open the book I find only one piece of writing.... I kick out any funny thoughts as I start reading:

"Umm... I don't know what to say... My pen is shaking in my hand and my thoughts are getting mixed up! Well, five minutes have passed before I start writing this sentence.... I have a story that you might enjoy... It is my story...

Well, two years ago, I saw a girl on the bank of a river moment before the sunrise... She was standing with eyes looking hesitantly everywhere... She looked so beautiful, but lost; she was like a beauty that lost the way. I approach her, and talk to her... She was so welcoming.... We were talking as if we knew each other ages ago... Every word she uttered hit my heart that was beating like a freak... All about her captured my mind, her voice, her smiles, her words, her eyes and even her lost hesitant looks... We spent hours talking, on the bank of the river... Hours that passed like two months... I feel I knew her ages before, I look at her eyes and know what she is thinking and what she is going to say... And my heart beats more and more as she talks... For a while I wonder what's wrong with me! But as I look into her eyes and feel that relief and admiration taking over me, I know what the answer is... I am in love!!!

You might think I am a maniac, or a fellow that falls in love with every woman he meets but this is not true. I know how you feel, but I am really in love with her, deep to the core... Therefore I decide to tell her what I feel... And I do.... She looks shy, then smiles and nodes her head like a "yes"... Happiness takes me over... I wanna jump, cry and fly... I wanna shout and tell the world how happy I am... Yet, something stops me, a feeling inside me tells me something is going to be wrong... I try to ignore that feeling, but I can't... We talk more and more, and one hour passes... She says:
"We have spent five hours here" With her eyes smiling at me
"Oh yeah, and still we got more time to go till the sunset" I answer back!
She looks at her watch and says "I have to leave"
"What? Why? We can leave together if you want..." I shout back in shock, my mind is trying to overcome the nightmare.
"I gotta leave alone... I am told to leave... We can't continue together" With a very cold face...
"I am here for you" I answer back in bitterness
"Don't wait for me" She replies...
"Were you laughing at me?" Anger starts to take over
"No, I swear no... It's just I gotta leave, they told me to leave" She replies!

I didn't say a word, she turns and walks away... Oh... Yeah there five hours... Only five hours.... I look back at the river... It is the sunset, just five hours after the sunrise!

I walk away and leave the place, but every now and then I go check if she was there... I still have hope I might meet her once more... I have not lost any hope in being with her.... Again!

Adam Gordon
April 1906
The Motel"

A tear falls down my cheek... I turn the page and all I find are names, names, different names with different dates.

"They all preferred to sign their name on this story, they said it is pretty similar to theirs" The old man whispers from behind. He moves and comes in front me and says "Didn't I tell you they all say they are alone at first!" The same kind smile on his face. "Do you want to write your story?" He asks...
"This is my story" I reply back... And I sign my name in the list.

I stand up to walk to my room... He calls me and says : "Hey, do not lose hope... It will help you walk through the long road"
"It looks impossible to me..." I answer as I push out a hot sigh!
"It once looked impossible, then it proved to be possible... Don't lose hope!" He adds with the same smile...
I smile back and go up to my room!

In the morning I wake up, go down and leave my keys on the bank... And I go back full of hope and dreams to continue walking through the long long long road!

The Only Queen

For how long am I going to wait?
For how long am I going to suffer?
Seconds are turning into hours
Days are going like years
Joy is turning to tears
Happiness is full of fears
It is like catching the moon light
Or like the fear of the dark night
I want to scream as loud as I could
And break the distance and time if I should
To come back to you
To see your smile come through
And to ask you
Do you trust my heart beats?
Do you believe in my dreams?
Can you see the passion in my eye gleams?
There is only you
Who can always be
The only Queen
Inside me

(This poem is written by Ahmed Abdel Hadi... Sometimes one man can tell what you can't tell!)

River of Lies...

I am so lonely without you
More than I used to be
I'm dying with the memory of moments
When our eyes used to meet
And I walk through the night
Treading on all my wounds
I stand and look at your eyes
A river is all I see

And I bend down and drink from your river
I am drunk in your river of lies
I know they are mere lies...
And I jump and drown to the bottom
And your water fill me with lies
There I wish I could die...

But I...
I don't want us be true to each other
I want to drown more into your river
And I...

I walk down with eyes upon you,
Full of tears that never fall
My heart's screaming your name
But you never hear its call
So I come and stand beside you
And you turn and smile to me
Now we are alone in that fake world
A big lie of you and me...

And I bend down and drink from your river
I am drunk in your river of lies
I know they are mere lies...
And I jump and drown to the bottom
And your water fill me with lies
There I wish I could die...

But I...
I don't want us be true to each other
I want to drown more into your river
And why??
Because I can't live my world without you
And I am tortured with the lies your pour on me...
On me...
Your river of lies...
River of lies...

A Mad Man

I am mad
I am writing this to tell all
No rhyme
No music
No meter
Fucken nothing
But the anger fever
That gonna rule
Only the truth gonna prevail
You wanted to see me mad?
Here I answer your call...

Are you ready?
I don't give a damn

I am mad
Oh really, you amazed?
I am at you
At her
At my fucken self
Am I fighting a war all by myself?
Am I living a world of my own?
With stupid ambitions and fanciful dreams
Alive, never gone...
I am not complaining,
I am just mad
I spit it at your stupid face...
Oh sorry, did I make you sad!

I am a mad man
Ready to burn the world
I am fed up with it
Fed up with adapting to it
Why doesn't it fucken adapt to me!
Why do I suffer with motherfuckers
Whenever I find myself something I wanna be!!

Why the damn stairs take me down?
Is it cuz of me or cuz of you?
We are different, that's ture
I was a fool for being with you...

And you, there, you damn punk
Happy with your fucken dusty empty trunk?
How long have you been alive?
What did you do, for yourself?
For all?
You are a failure...
Are you proud of that?
Living like a moron, do you love the role?
Like to be cheated and fucked by all?
Why should I pay the price
Of the fucken misery to which you fall?
Oh, again...
Expecting nothing of the world?
Ever thought what the world expects of you?
Live, have fun, roam the city all night, throw everything away...
But I am sorry, when its time
I am not going to pay.

(To be fucken continued...)

Silent and Suffocated

Silence silence fucken silence
Keep the fucken mouth shut
As long as you're trembling, afraid
Let silence from your flesh cut

I am silent and fucken what
From bad to worse, from worse to worst...
I am silent and fucken suffocated
Words burn me, and smoke suffocates me first.

I wanna shout at your face
Screem and slap you to wake up
I am afraid if I do it I would kill you
I would avange all what fed me up.

I am suffocated with silence,
Fuck silence, that I gonna break.
You gonna feel, listen and see
The real voice, real face, nothing fake.

As long as my tears never touch my cheek
And only my heart bleeds in pain like a freak
As long as I am meant to suffer so that you live
When it is time to pay... I got nothing to give.

She might!!

He: I am afraid...
Him: Of what?
He: She might leave me...
Him: Who's she?
He: She... What's wrong with you...
Him: Oh, yeah, your beloved...
He: Yeah...
Him: The one you love...
He: Yeah...
Him: The one that loves you...
He is silent...
Him: Aha... One-sided love?
He: Hell no...
Him: Then she loves you?
He (quickly): I don't know.
Him: Did you talk to her?
He: Sure
Him: And?
He: Nothing!
Him: Nothing??? Was it a silent conversation?? Did you use human language or signals or what? He: This is not funny.
Him: It is, you just don't wanna laugh at your misery, dude...
He: What fucken misery you talking about?
Him: Your misery, a guy that loves a girl, talks to her and in away he gets nothing out of her, not even a yes or a no. Don't you think this is a misery?
He: I am afraid she might leave me....
Him: Did she even get into something with you to leave you?
He: I don't know what to do...
Him: Go, talk, ask for a response that will either satisfy your thirst for requited emotions or breaks your beating heart into pieces.
He: What if she breaks my heart?
Him: What if she doesn't?
He: I don't know....
Him: Now you know but you don't want to move.
He: She might...
Him (interrupting): Exactly, she MIGHT, buddy...

(A girl's effect on a guy... I have seen such situations with the same words being repeated... But who is He, and who is Him??... You answer it)